You may have noticed that I'm a bit (okay, VERY) late with posts this week. So late in fact that I completely skipped last week and almost decided to do the same this week. Then I made myself stop for moment and take a step back. The view from outside of all of the busy-ness was much different than the one from inside. From outside I could see that I have let an old bad habit creep back into my life. You may have it too. It is the habit of setting your personal goals aside in the pursuit of group goals. That group may be family or friends. It may involve employment or volunteer work. The group goal is important. It also gives you the chance to work as a team. Having others to bounce ideas off of and divide tasks with is typically something that you don't get while pursuing personal goals. If you miss a deadline with a group, you will hear about it from the group. Having others to answer to can make the group goal seem more important. After all, if you miss your personal deadline, you are the only one who will be upset, and it is very easy to rationalize that you missed it only because you were working on more important things. Before you know it, you are convincing yourself that your things can wait. They are not as important, after all. They will still be there later...
But will they? Will they be there later? The answer is a very shaky "maybe". Will you find the time to get back to your personal passions or will this group project lead to the next group project that will take the spotlight? Will your personal goals wait for you or will they simple become things that could have been? What will it do to you if you continue to set your goals aside? Will they sit inside you contentedly waiting for that opportune moment when everything is perfect or will they grow heavy and affect your attitude. From personal experience, our dreams are not content to wait for us to find time for them. They demand that we make time for them. If we don't, it is very likely that they will disappear or grow menacing in their insistence for attention.
I have noticed my mood sinking over the last couple of weeks. I tried to blame it on three rounds of The Cold Season. While being ill may have contributed, I now believe it has much more to do with the fact that I had set aside my own projects in an effort to put a number of group projects first. The problem came when I did not manage to get past them and make progress on my own things. This unbalanced approach always does a number on my attitude. You would think I would learn. So, I am now in the process of rethinking how I handle things. I am reminding myself that it is not selfish to put my own goals first. It is self preservation which leads to a well balanced life and better motivation in all areas. After all, if I don't take myself seriously, how can I expect anyone else to?
Acknowledging that my own goals are as important as those goals that include others can be difficult for me. If it is for you too, maybe we should team up. Maybe we should form our own group where we bounce ideas for our own projects off of each other, divide tasks simply by keeping our own projects moving forward, and help each other stay accountable to our personal deadlines. If we all put our own dreams first, maybe this world will be filled with even more great things. What do you think?
Being a homeschooling parent for 13 years and an independent author/illustrator makes a person learn quite a bit about a lot of things. Now it's time to pass it on!